How do you deal with stress?

Well, the past few weeks have been some of the most stressful weeks of my life! First, C and I were busy every night and weekend. We couldn't find time to do anything together. This really frustrated me. I get that people want to see us, and he has his hobbies but I can only go so long without spending time together. This made us learn, we need to say no sometimes. If people get mad, so be it. It's our first year of marriage - we can be selfish with our time. We'll never get this time back. Last weekend we finally spent time together - just the two of us! It definitely gave me the boost I needed.

So with things on the relationship front on track, work decided to kick my butt. Everyday seemed worse than the last. I can't remember the last time I was so stressed out that I just sat at my desk and cried. Yep, I have turned into an emotional wreck. I dread the feeling of going to work, and I have no idea what will come up each day. This uneasy feeling just does not work for me. I am not usually a negative person, however, I can't seem to dig myself out of my funk. I honestly don't know what more to do. I feel like I am under attack everyday. The worst is that people who I respected and thought had integrity showed their true colours. One thing I have learned, I will never throw anybody under the bus to get attention or to take the heat off of me. I own up to my mistakes, and I will forever stick up for those around me. If others want to play the name game, I can only breathe and know that I have done my best and have done it with integrity, honesty and some Elizabeth flare! 

So today I made a decision, it's time to deal with the stress and look at the positives. I do have some amazing co-workers, who I do look forward to seeing everyday. Co-workers who actually care about more than if I made them look good or not. These are people I shall focus my energy on. I also have a huge community of support in my church. They lift me up and remind me that I am not alone, there is a plan for my life and I must just have faith in that plan. No matter what the situation, I should cast my cares on Him for He cares for us. The best thing, I have the love of a man, who woke up when I was leaving just to say he loved me and that my day was going to be okay. No matter what happens, he loves me and our life together is more important than any job.

So, although I had a teary eyed moment today, I am confident I will buck up and get back to being my happy self. Already tonight I feel so much better. After I got home from work, I decided to do what makes me happy - cook and bake! I made some delicious pumpkin curry for dinner, which unfortunately C was not home for but will enjoy for his lunch tomorrow ;) I also made homemade tomato sauce, which then I turned into a delicious and fresh lasagna. I can't wait to bake this up tomorrow for dinner! To finish off my night, I made pumpkin cupcakes with cinnamon brown sugar buttercream icing.  They don't look exactly like I thought, but they sure do taste good. I seem to have taken out all my aggression on frosting and sauce, such a freeing night!

To finish off, these bad few weeks have taught me some really good lessons.
1. I love to cook/bake. I hope one day I can own my own little bakery/restaurant - time to dream!
2. I have a lot of people who support me and I shouldn't focus on those who want to tear me down - focus on those who love me. I have amazing friends, family, co-workers and my husband!
3. When I wear 5-inch heals and a cute outfit at work - I feel like I can take on the world. When you're having an off day, try and dress up in your favourite outfit. It's amazing what a pair of shoes and some pantyhose can do!